Saturday, October 23, 2010


When all those paperworks piled up on your desk in the office; the clock struck exactly at 6 in the evening and you are sitting there, working on your task, to be submitted early tomorrow morning. The worst thing that could have happened was, today was the last day of the weekdays and you promised to meet your friends out for a drink at the nearest club. That is adulthood, the career age or what I would call, the day when you wish that you could have gone back to the university life, learning and completing assignments and tutorials and be back home whenever you feel like doing so.

Disregard of commitments and responsibility, everything in the campus was fine to the extent when finals were far beyond imagination. Working is a completely different lives, when you need to think much more than what was needed back in the class, when you need to spend more time analyzing rather than searching for solutions through friends or online, when you need to work overtime to complete unfinished task when you can just copy tutorials and assignment answers from your friends when it due the next morning. The mechanism is not much of a difference between working and studying. It works the same way, but it requires much more commitment and responsibility than mere understanding. Yet, comparing, learning is a forever routine that can never stops. Thus, it is wiser to conclude that, working incorporates learning as well, in other words, studying, self-learning to improve yourself further.

Take it from me seems like illogical. What does a student, on internship knows about working and studying? It would better if you get some advice from your old folks at home with much more experience. Yet, I am a student, I am viewing myself from the point of view of every student. Some has yet to grasp the feeling of working, but some has a gotten a feel of it. Some like it very much, some despise it, some are indifferent about it and some just do it because, "Life is like that."

It pretty much a nuisance for us interns to be associated with working life as we are just novice, learning the basic culture of working, to respect and to be injected with the office affairs. We are trying to get some experience, something to learn before our graduation and perhaps trying to understand the scope of degree, whether what we are studying is compatible with what we will be doing. Some people manage to lock on their interest and some, barely makes a move. It does not matter how we do things and it does not matter how people look at you, what matters is how you carry yourself in the near future, how you associate yourself with the cruelty of the world, how you bring yourself up to the highest peak of the mountain, and more importantly, how you judge yourself before you learn how to judge your friends.

Adulthood is something to be proud of, to signify that you have attained the level of maturity, and able to walk independently on your own. However, it is not a status, not something to be used for your own sake. Not everyone will be proud of their adulthood but I do believe that they will always learn to make it better. Time and tide waits for no man, but adulthood is there for every single being, waiting to torched forever in the hearts of every person.

The Day When you Realize that, "Life is like that."

I have pretty much kept everything to myself since the start of the internship period. Nothing much have been spilled out and perhaps that is the best thing to do. Letting people in my lives and allowing them to go out of my lives were not simple and being one of the person that was trying to stay sane most of the time, makes things even harder. But life has to go on.
People always claim that we have to move on in lives. Dump the bad memories behind and live a new life ahead. Could that be as simple as the word coming out from the mouth of the person who was trying to clarify the matters happening in the world? Perhaps, it is always the case for them.
The past has always been wanting to interfere with the future. It is always contradicting, passive and somehow rewarding. Nevertheless, the weight of benefits that it brings constantly varies. The dark side of human beings and the good side of it can never coexist. One can be as good as a scholar but never a skilled hunter, unless with keen determination and willpower. Lacking one of these criteria, you are just an ordinary human being. Likewise, think of your future, and how it was derived from your past experience. The way you live your lives for the past years, and the constant effect of your steady lives has brought upon today. Judge yourself and judge others, and comprehend the existence of the people around you and learn to make some changes in your lives when it seems dull and full of failure.
The impact, the happening in your lives are somehow there for a reason. The way you deal with matters affecting yourself will bring upon judgment to others. What can you learn, what can you see from others and what can you see in yourself are the things that matter most for now. For lives is not independent, the dependency is great, much more greater than the SARS effect. It works, it expands, it grows, much more faster than the money in the Wall Street drops or goes up.
A quote from a friend of mine, ' Life is like that." Do you agree? Do you comprehend your life? Do you understand the impact of your decision on others? Do you fathom the sadness of others? And that is life to begin with. No matter how many decisions you make, your lives will still be that kind of lives unless you do something to change it.