The Day of Independence

Independence.
The day where our great ancestors bring forth our wisdom and knowledge,we secure our dignity as a country, being able to run on its own people and desire. We travel from the banished land to the land where the democracy rules; democracy reigns; democracy speaks for every mankind. We are fortunate to be able to rule our own country by its own terms and regulations, having free from the dictatorship of our conquerer. What brings forth the ties of various colors in our nation is as simple as getting independence. The promise of freedom, the promise of peace, the promise that each and everyone of us will be treated equally regardless of our different status.

Years of independence has bring forth great achievement.
Today marks the 53rd Independence Day.
Does democracy rules?
Are the promises being kept and held strongly?
I doubt but I would really like to believe.
We strive for peace, we strive to make our country stronger by unifying different races and we strive to uphold the name of Malaysia in our very own hearts.

But..
But.....

Today marks the 53rd Independence Day.
And again, I ask the same questions.
I wanted to believe again but I am saddened and horrified.
Unity is just a disguise, a label of peace that barely brings meaning. Our nations are falling apart. Racism has been devouring our mind. We are going against our own people, Malaysians. Should there be any label, it should only be Malaysians. Chinese, Muslims and Indians are the main pillars of the country. Going against one another would not only destroy the country but the people itself.

Think about it.

On the neutral standpoint, it really has nothing to do with the people just the foolish mindset of those who think that they are superior. Talking about history, the origin and the people, it brings no meaning at all. History taught us to be grateful, appreciate our country and people but what certain people did, definitely tarnish the name of history.

None of us own the land, nor the land belongs to anyone of us. A simple mindset brings forward the cowardliness to assume belongings on the land. None of us truly knows, nor does history is a complete justification of our past. Bear in mind that no man is truly superior. The act of racism and humiliating other people or races is not acceptable. Much more to comment, not only citizens are portraying the act of racism, even the higher ups, the one we trusted to be loyal to the regulations, and "Perlembagaan Malaysia." Somehow, the authority given is exploited. The powers given to them are misused. Should we trust them? Should we put our faith in these people? It remains a question to be answered.

Today marks the 53rd Independence Day.
And I ask those in authority.
Who is in the wrong?
Who is to blame?
Does this incident starts for no reason?
Is there only one person to be blamed?

I believe that there is still hope. A hope for for unifying the various races in the country. It is a matter of strengthening the bond of unity and disregard the differences we had. We are the same, we are one. Under 1Malaysia concept, I believe our Prime Minister has made a right choice in implementing this concept. However, do not just display it, do not make it a label, and do not just speak freely the concept without a deep understanding of its consequences. A man that speaks his mind is a great man, a true blessing from heaven but a man that speaks his mind and wanders off, is good for nothing. I hope and I believe that whatever happens will be seriously look into.

Today marks the 53rd Independence Day.
To all races, be strong and stay unified.
To those little rats out there, I do hope that they realize the consequences.

Today marks the 53rd Independence Day.
Happy Independence Day!

The Rusty Gold Coin

What does a rusty gold coin signify?
What implicit meaning could it bring?

To be dependent is not exactly bad because everyone is related in every sense. So, what difference does it conclude? Dependency is a addiction, a drug that pollutes your system. As much as I would like to depend on someone else, I'd rather not. I'd rather put myself in a dire situation than to actually believe in that person's credibility. Even if I do, I could not placed a 100% trust. Perhaps, it is my own defects, my own characteristics that made me this way; I barely put my trust on people. Mainly because I believe that the trust will always be exploited for other usage. Thus, what brings me to this rusty gold coin was just a small event in my life. A gold coin that is supposed to contribute greatly to the person's wealth was no longer valuable. Implicitly, the trust faded. The trust has been exploited and it was not just the first time but few other occasions. Too young and naive perhaps, but I have finally reached a decision on my own. I'd rather be a lone ranger. Hunting on my own, living on my own without the existence of people. Somehow and somewhat, humans are really scary but the scariest thing has yet to be developed. Humans are mysterious. However, their intentions are much more complicated, worse compared to the black hole.

The First Chapter of the Semester

Plentiful things have happened these few months. Somehow, I felt the impact of every tiny little things that appeared in my life as well as those, vanished from my very own eyes. I could not comprehend most of the things but I do try to understand the nature of life.

Time for a reality check. I felt like myself turning into someone, somebody I could barely recognize if I were to compare myself from the day I came into this big city and the person I am today. Be it good or bad, I am in doubt, I am constantly analyzing my behavior and a warning alarm was always ready to be ignited. I do not want evolution. I do not wish to see myself walking out from the circle of society I have build so far. I do not wish to be different. I just wanted a simple life, and soon a wealthy one. But, there are situations where I am indeed yearning for a trial, an experience, a taste of humanity; a taste of what people described as life. I am yearning for those, looking forward for more life exposure. However, as I proceed, I am always surrounded by guilt; engulfed in the flame of fear, surrounded by the laughter of sinisterly evil and wicked souls. I am in much doubt, trying to sustain and control, and perhaps disabling myself would lead to a better outcome. Every single moment, what I did, will always be reviewed and I always regret my own decision but I still proceed with it. Somehow, I am a hypocrite to begin with, but I am very clear of my path, of my life and of my future. Whoever I am does not matter to me. I am everybody - just another person walking down the road in the streets of people.

~Michael Ch'ng~

The Way of Life

It was never an intention; it never cross my thoughts; perhaps it does, I barely remember. Drifting on the water, the boat was forced into the mist - a storm that will soon come to be. Feeling insecure, I grabbed the paddle with all my might and I shoved it into the water which seems like a thick molten lava. Without any aid of vision, I was directly heading for my judgement. Soon, the flow of water froze and the momentum of the boat was halted. Failing to utilize my senses, I am vulnerable to any attacks.
I froze.
Something was not right at the moment. My blood was boiling in fear under the barely lit moonlight. My senses were stolen right in front of me and I stand nothing but a puppet being manipulated. It was the darkest moment; the darkest hour of my life and I could not do a single thing about it. Regret as I was but not before I know what will happen to me, I will not give up.

It pictures what I am, the feeling that lingers inside me, holding my every single breath. A life as you remember is not about having everything, but a few things that are important to you. Perhaps you had not experienced it yet. The river flows, the mountain stood and the world rotates, but do mankind ever listen and pay attention to their surroundings? Learn to observe, learn to give and take but never indulge yourself in an act that detonate the bomb inside you.

Excuses are just excuses

What happens when someone came to you and said, " I've tried my best. I studied day and night but I still can't score!" Well, what would be your first impression? Firstly, he is a nuisance? Secondly, perhaps he has got nothing better to do and decided to blurt something out of the ordinary? Thirdly, any reasons that you can come up with. It is not a sin to utter such, perhaps nonsensical but logical sentences. Yes, you burn midnight oil everyday but perhaps, you lack of something. Commitment. Effort. Willpower. Whichever of these that you failed to cultivate will lead you nowhere from your starting point. It is just another circle, going one cycle after another. In the end, you obtain and achieve nothing but perhaps, you have wasted some of your time doing unproductive things. It is not unusual but common. People just lost interest in what they do, perhaps too many distractions in reality that brings their heart elsewhere instead of its rightful position. However, I personally think that those sentences are purely uttered out of unconscious mind. Not to be rude, those are just wrong. Totally unacceptable. After going through endless cycles of merry-go-round, you came back to a simple excuse. " I've tried my best. I studied day and night but I still can't score!"

No matter what you do, when you start giving excuses, that is when you stop moving forward.
~Michael Ch'ng~

For I am a human, you are nothing more than it

I held out my hands, trying reach for you, to reach for your problems; but sadly, I get nothing in return. The same attitude; the same expression I see will never change. How could I be of any help? Being apart of your lives allow me to ponder mine as well, seeking the more interesting section of the pie chart, and ignoring the maths of complicated reasoning. However, it is not a good reason to dump everything behind; and just go on, enjoying your life. I am not saying you should not enjoy, but learn to comprehend. Seek reasons behind every action. Nobody does something without a valid reasoning. It is just like 1 + 1 = 2. You do not argue, but you accept because there are reasons for it. I defy regulations, create my own rules, just to make sure, perhaps you would really understand that I am truly on your side. You took advantage but I could not be bothered much because I knew what was going to happen. It is just a matter of time. In the end, what you have lost is more than what you have gained. For me, I have gained and receive nothing but perhaps, somehow I felt a connection between us. Much more than a friend, blood-related perhaps, siblings to be exact. Well, at least I do not regret my actions. Learn from your mistakes because there is hardly second chance in this world.

"For I am a human, you are nothing more than it. Because we are both equal."
~Michael Ch'ng~

The randomness of life

Looking back, digging through the chapters of my life,
I could not describe much,
Friends;
Family;
Familiarity;
Failure;
Forgiveness;
Forbidden;
Forgo;
It was not much of a life perhaps,
But I lived through days and nights,
Contemplating, determining, and many thoughts happen to cross my mind,
My journey has just begun,
Although I have been awake for so long,
20 years of my teenage life,
Empty.
Memories are just slideshows,
Limited.
Limit is it,
I'm growing up,
I'm learning to be more independent as I go,
You should too, my friend.
Life is not about one thing in particular,
Everything links,
They bond,
A line that ties us forever, unbreakable;
Till the graveyard we go.
Today, I live,
Tomorrow, I live,
The day after and the rest of the coming days,
We never know,
Because we never care,
It is life and what we do is living it to the fullest,
To the extent of satisfaction.
What makes us human in the end,
Is what make us one.